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Beard

Yeah so I shaved my beard. Because she said it had grown too much. I had to choose between her and Shruti's opinions. Maybe what happened afterwards is karma.  I think I'm her week-job. Spending time with me keeps her going during the week, as she looks forward eagerly to the weekend, when she can finally be with him (and his friends??). Anyway, I was right to be worried about the beard. And I was an idiot to expect anything more than what I got from her today. After all, she asked if she could invited him to our movie session yesterday. Okay screw her, I'm a lost cause anyway. Let's talk more about me and people.  I wonder, if there's atleast one person in this world who's thinking about at any point of time. Like right now. Is there anyone who's thinking about me? Even I'm not thinking about me, I'm thinking about her (or Shruti?). I swear, this is gonna get me killed someday. Maybe even today. Who knows?  Maybe I look forward to some things a lil
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Perks of not being a wallflower.

This movie was supposed to make me cry. Right? What did I do wrong? I went over to Netflix.com, searched for Perks of Being a Wallflower, clicked on the play button. Not a lot of room for error here.  Oh well, another time maybe. I hate Bums for suggesting the movie. I really do. It hit so fucking hard and the worst part is, I want to hope that I'll also have a happy ending like Charlie did. But no, I'm fairly certain I won't. Where's the character depth? Where's the childhood trauma that connects us? I'm just a wholesome pond skater insect, existing only on the surface. "I was happy because they were happy." I'd like to believe that this what I live by. But is it really? Do I act like am happy so that I don't have to put my true intentions out there in the open and make things awkward? Why the fuck can't I stand awkwardness? Just why? I think it's because I'm scared of losing people. For god's sake, why do people just assume I
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